I may not know everything in the world. I may not be the wisest of all. but I do know one thing; when you know that there is something in your life that you cant hold onto anymore, you have to let it go and think about another day. what I am referring to is me and school...college to be exact. I attempted three semesters of college, failed the first, passed the second, the last one I "passed" all but one. During this last one i realized something about myself; I cannot force myself to learn if I am not willing to. I lost a lot of my ambition for life during this last semester. I stopped listening to the music I enjoyed, I barely took a photo, I didn't paint, I didn't craft, I stopped being happy, I worried a lot, I was angry: I was not myself. And I realized at the last moment that having a handful of classes was the root of my problems. I love to learn, it is my favorite thing to do, to learn something new. but I have the characteristic of a river: I flow at my own rate and when I get to my destination , I get to it. I never ever wanted to quit my education. education is key, and when you don't have the education...the door wont open. But I was looking at this wrong, I was thinking, education from schools means you'll get far in life. now I realize that education is all around us...education of life. you can be an A student in school, but be lost when it comes down to real life situations. We all make mistakes, but we have to move pass them and down the road we might end up thanking the mistake because we have learned so much along the way. But now I am without school, and I need to find a job, and that is terrifying to me because from what I have seen in humanity is that humans want to get ahead in life, no matter what the cost or hurt. that is not the rule I follow in my life, i love to help people...not hurt. but it is difficult especially in the place I live, there are barley any jobs out there for us who are lower ranked(poor). Hopefully with a lot of magick and goodwill and high hopes I get a job that will allow me to rekindle the friendship I had with myself and deity.
Wish me Good Luck, and remember to not lose yourself in whatever choice you make.